June 12th, 2011: Day 24
For the past 24 days I have had a scapegoat to blame all my difficulties, mistakes, sins, dumb ideas, and evil thoughts on. Best of all – it probably is the cause of those things, to some degree, so I’m not lying .
According to the The American Heritage® Medical Dictionary, the definition of a withdrawal symptom is:
withdrawal symptom: Any of a group of physical and psychological symptoms occurring in an individual deprived of an accustomed dose of an addicting agent.
Read the definition again.
Get it? ANY!
This is a huge relief to me especially since the weirdest things have been happening to my mind and body. Like sudden onset dementia- I could not remember my best friends name yesterday which was a bit embarrassing because I was introducing her to someone at the time.
Having an excuse for them is OK. But what I really wanted to know is when are they going to stop? So, I started going to medical websites to research this topic and I discovered a couple things.
The Mayo Clinic told me:
Just 20 minutes after your last cigarette, your heart rate goes down. Twelve hours later, levels of carbon monoxide, a toxic gas, in your blood return to normal. Your lung function improves and your circulation starts to get better within three months.
Cool. My body has already started healing from all those years of abuse. I hope it can forgive me.
The Kaiser Permanente told me:
The withdrawal symptoms are worst during the first week or so, but they may last a few weeks. For some people, the first couple of months can be hard.
Since mine are lasting over 3-weeks, I must be one of “some people”. Looks like I’m going to need an excuse for myself a bit longer…