Come Inside My Head, if You Dare…
Today may have been perfect if not for this.
Dear Diary,
I’m pale, hungry, and barely smiling. It’s just after noon and I’m going to eat something and lie down on my bed for awhile. I feel (and look) sick. Perhaps I will sleep and be refreshed. Often I wake up grumpy and lethargic after a nap. I feel so drained that I’m going to take the chance.
I keep thinking it’s “time for a cigarette”, then remembering I stopped as I’m walking towards the door to the backyard where my smokes are. Were.
This is really HARD!
Friday, May 20th
Dear Diary,
My last puff was 8-hours ago. I feel really good and energetic, except I am mentally pacing around and restless. It’s time for my after lunch smoke, but I am not doing that. I can still go outside on my break and enjoy the sunshine – it will be weird without a cigarette, but then, what isn’t?
Before I leave for the weekend I think I will clean my work area. My desk is surrounded by dust bunnies and there are crumbs and coffee stains everywhere. It’s starting to gross me out and make me claustrophobic. Only an hour or so until I leave here and go to the grocery store to pick up some ingredients my daughter will need to make my special diabetic approved birthday cake this weekend. She found a recipe that is so wonderful AND uses artificial sugar 🙂
My next-door-office neighbor gave me a gift this morning. A large bag overflowing with sugar-free candies to help me through my cigarette-less days ahead. Is she being her sweet self, or is she afraid? Regardless, I am enjoying them much!
Well- I must get off my butt and take a little walk around the building now.
TTFN
Tuesday, May 17th
Dear Diary,
I bought a pack of cigarettes today- my last one, God willing. I finished the tasks in Phase 2. I will start Phase 3 ( the actual quitting part) on my birthday. In two days. Yikes!
Two things I will NOT miss about smoking are the messy ashtrays, and the Surgeon General warning me all the time.
Quitting Smoking Now: Greatly Reduces Surgeon General’s Warnings about your health.
Now how is that for something to print on a pack of cigarettes?
TTFN
Jodi Lea's Place 