Tag: Health

Diary of a Nicotine Addict: Week One

~ JodiLea

May 27th, 2011

Dear Diary,

I think smoking dampens your sex drive.

After a week of not doing it (smoking, that is), I am starting to think about doing you know what.  Often.  I have not been this frisky in years. I hope this is a lasting side-effect.

My TMJ has really acted up the past few days. I must be clenching my teeth, or sucking too hard on my little candies. Whatever is causing it has to stop – the pain is incredible. And yes, I am doing my jaw exercises and not chewing gum. I need Motrin, ice and a Valium. Two out of the three will have to suffice.

I pray that it’s not an abscessed tooth disguised as TMJ.  This would not surprise me much. It is a holiday weekend and things like that happen to me, when my dentist’s office is closed or he’s on vacation. He vacations a lot more since he got me for a patient. I’m pretty sure my bad teeth has paid for either his BMW or his boat too.

Anyway, I am rambling (OK, bitching). Need to stir the green chili burrito meat and take my ice pack to bed for a nap. Maybe I’ll have a fabulous dream….

Diary of a Nicotine Addict: Day 1

~ JodiLea

Birthday CakeFriday, May 20th

Dear Diary,

My last puff was 8-hours ago. I feel really good and energetic, except I am mentally pacing around and restless. It’s time for my after lunch smoke, but I am not doing that. I can still go outside on my break and enjoy the sunshine – it will be weird without a cigarette, but then, what isn’t?

Before I leave for the weekend I think I will clean my work area. My desk is surrounded by dust bunnies and there are crumbs and coffee stains everywhere. It’s starting to gross me out and make me claustrophobic. Only an hour or so until I leave here and go to the grocery store to pick up some ingredients my daughter will need to make my special diabetic approved birthday cake this weekend. She found a recipe that is so wonderful AND uses artificial sugar 🙂

My next-door-office neighbor gave me a gift this morning. A large bag overflowing with sugar-free candies to help me through my cigarette-less days ahead. Is she being her sweet self, or is she afraid? Regardless, I am enjoying them much!

Well- I must get off my butt and take a little walk around the building now.

TTFN

Diary of a Nicotine Addict: T -10 hours and Counting

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The Last One

Thursday, May 19th

Dear Diary,

My last pack has 4 cigarettes in it and I am debating whether or not to save 1  of them for the morning with my coffee. Waking up for me is the hardest part without a cigarette. Don’t I deserve a break on my birthday morning? The more I think about it, the better it sounds, so that is now my plan. Maybe I can save 2 of them….

Today I warned my co-worker and office hallway neighbor that tomorrow I may seem “off”. I have a mindless task all to work on all day if I want (need?) to. Since my hubby hasn’t read my blog in a long time, I had to warn him also. He took the news really well, which means he forgot what a pain in the ass I’m going to be for an unknown quantity of days. Maybe weeks.

I may even glam it up a bit if I have extra time. I never know what sort of mood I will be having in the morning, so I may go to work wearing comfy casual. One thing I am definitely wearing is a nicotine patch. What I put on over it, is not so important.

When you arise tomorrow morning, please wish me luck, or say a prayer, or knock on wood for me – whatever it is you do to send someone good vibes, OK?. I will need them!

TTFN  🙂