Tuesday, May 17th

Dear Diary,

I bought a pack of cigarettes today- my last one, God willing. I finished the tasks in Phase 2. I will start Phase 3 ( the actual quitting part) on my birthday. In two days. Yikes!

Two things I will NOT miss about smoking are the messy ashtrays, and the Surgeon General warning me all the time.

Quitting Smoking Now: Greatly Reduces Surgeon General’s Warnings about your health.

Now how is that for something to print on a pack of cigarettes?

TTFN

Sunday, May 15th

Dear Diary,

Phase 2 is not helping me so far…

In fact, the phase that’s supposed to help me prepare for my Quit Date, is causing  flashbacks of my attempts to quit smoking that failed. As I read through the warnings of symptoms and issues that might occur as I detox from cigarettes, I started to think that this whole thing is a bad idea.

I now am smoking more than I did last week.

I’m getting scared, and I want to quit. The program – not the cigarettes. My addiction (a.k.a., The Bitch), keeps telling me, loudly, that cigarettes are what keep me calm, and sane. I can’t enjoy my life without them. Yada, Yada, Yada…

I am halfway through this phase, when are they going to  bring out the heavy artillery??